are you full of seething rage, Bernardo? i know i am. i'm always mad about something. i'm full of resentment for virtually anyone i've ever interacted with in any capacity. i spend a significant portion of my time fantasizing about beating the shit out of people who i think have wronged me or murdering them in cold blood. on one hand, i know it's not normal. on the other hand, when i "zoom in", i feel entirely justified in my resentment for every single instance of it. i think that people like me were meant for a fast life. i was meant for war. i was meant for rape. i was meant for pillaging. i was meant for ethnic cleansing. i'm not trying to act "tough" here, this is clearly what minds like mine were designed for, they were not designed for the milquetoast, slow life of modern society.