Im nearly 30 too and if you want true freedom i recommend getting a bed at a homeless shelter

Do you even have monasteries in US? What are they like?

I love this story arc of your life. It's unbelievably entertaining.

>>25536026 Yeah

>>25536014 I don't think that's a good idea >>25536021 Yes we have them here, yes I've visited one before but it was very politically correct and was not very true to the Christian message. I was thinking of going to another one far away from where I am. >>25536026 Well unfortunately it's very real and I can't do much about it. I'm kind of a meme.

>>25536021 They have like whole christcuck convents, camps, villages, and also one entire state for that. Church attendance in burgerland is magnitudes higher compared to Russia where christianity is mostly just dog-and-pony show.

>>25536040 Like I don't even want to do this tbh but idk what else to do, I would stay where I am if everyone else wasn't so problematic

Retards like you don’t belong in a monastery

are you catholic

>>25536151 I'd rather not go anywhere but I am being forced by circumstances to go into a controlled environment after I was arrested >>25536153 Not really no

If society would've just left me alone this wouldn't have happened

>>25536188 Go the homeless route Youll never go back

>>25536195 I don't think I want to be homeless..

>>25536220 But youre not you have a bed at a shelter

>>25536233 I wouldn't be given any privacy whatsoever, this is a very bad idea, onionball

>>25536040 russian vs american christianity be like

I think the only real solution for my problem is suicide, people like me would be put in concentration camps anyway for euthanization, atleast in more eugenic societies. Or if I was physically disabled, like in Spartan society I definitely would've been killed off. Didn't Hitler kill mentally disabled people? Yet normies would rather have people like me and niggers existing. What a fucked up society this is that they actually allow human detritus to walk among themselves. I really don't understand it.

>>25536282 Blind compassion is the greatest fault of the normalfag. In his narcissistic folly, he imagines that disabled retards and niggers are "just like him" and can just exist in the same way he does.

>>25536303 Or no let's not say 'normal' since nobody is really normal but the average person. And catering society to the average person is not really doing anyone else any justice, especially me or niggers.

>>25536237 I live at a shelter

>>25536282 You'll be ok. You just mindrot on internet too much and find people that feed the insecure ego pity party. Real autismo retards are happy. You are just a bitch.

>>25536349 I'm currently dealing with the law as I chat with Bernd, I don't think I'm necessarily 'ok' whatever that means to you. I don't think you actually know my settis either, not that you care which is understandable, but don't assert things you know nothing about that's kind of annoying.

I wish I never existed, that's all I'm certain about.

>>25536360 You been saying that about the law for a while. If it were bad, you wouldnt been able to keep whining about it. I been to jail for a few things, it aint shit.

>>25536373 It was bad do you know what my bond was? Do you even want to know?

>>25536373 I won't go into it but it was very high for something that was moreso a misdemeanor, it just so happens I was put in prison by female cops who didn't necessarily put down the charges as accurately as possible.

>>25536377 >>25536377 Sure

>>25536392 Ok, I might as well. So, it should've been brought down to 1 charge if I have to be honest about this but they gave me 3 charges, 2 for "violent arrest" and 1 for "aggravated flight". I wasn't, in fact, driving away from them in an attempt to obscure drugs or anything illicit I was actually very tired when this happened and I wasn't sure what was going on. I hadn't slept in several days prior. I had just wanted to drive to the store (at the speed limit btw) and get some things so by the time I noticed the police were following me I parked inside the marketplace. At which point they told me to get out and that I was "resisting arrest" even though I had parked eventually and was following their instructions. So, after, I got down and they handcuffed me. When this happened they were being very aggressive with me and handled me very roughly, put me against my truck and asked me the typical questions I guess but then other questions too when I gave them answers that didn't satisfy them. Because I wanted this to be over with, I just told them I was autistic thinking this would free me but it didn't because after they laughed and said, "Well why didn't you say so??!" in a tongue-in-cheek way.. then I asked if I could be freed and they said something like, "No you have to calm down" or some shit as if they were playing with me. And I couldn't calm down because they were staring at me the whole time very close at which point I think I said 'Help' very loudly and they responded with something strange like, "Yes we're going to help you!!".. This is when I had an outburst because I've had previous very bad encounters with police but that I didn't get in any serious trouble for, but it was in the back of my mind, and it was strong enough.. these memories.. to create this outburst of mine where I yelled at them very loudly about these previous injustices done to me by police and so this caused an altercation where they dragged me to their car where in the process I tried to refuse going in their car and had kicked one of them. This is when they told me that they couldn't free me and that I would be imprisoned because of it.

>>25536392 Ok, I might as well. So, it should've been brought down to 1 charge if I have to be honest about this but they gave me 3 charges, 2 for "violent resistance of arrest" and 1 for "aggravated flight". I wasn't, in fact, driving away from them in an attempt to obscure drugs or anything illicit I was actually very tired when this happened and I wasn't sure what was going on. I hadn't slept in several days prior. I had just wanted to drive to the store (at the speed limit btw) and get some things so by the time I noticed the police were following me I parked inside the marketplace. At which point they told me to get out and that I was "resisting arrest" even though I had parked eventually and was following their instructions. So, after, I got down and they handcuffed me. When this happened they were being very aggressive with me and handled me very roughly, put me against my truck and asked me the typical questions I guess but then other questions too when I gave them answers that didn't satisfy them. Because I wanted this to be over with, I just told them I was autistic thinking this would free me but it didn't because after they laughed and said, "Well why didn't you say so??!" in a tongue-in-cheek way.. then I asked if I could be freed and they said something like, "No you have to calm down" or some shit as if they were playing with me. And I couldn't calm down because they were staring at me the whole time very close at which point I think I said 'Help' very loudly and they responded with something strange like, "Yes we're going to help you!!".. This is when I had an outburst because I've had previous very bad encounters with police but that I didn't get in any serious trouble for, but it was in the back of my mind, and it was strong enough.. these memories.. to create this outburst of mine where I yelled at them very loudly about these previous injustices done to me by police and so this caused an altercation where they dragged me to their car where in the process I tried to refuse going in their car and had kicked one of them. This is when they told me that they couldn't free me and that I would be imprisoned because of it.

>>25536392 I had stayed there for 3 days and they let me out on a bond of $50,000.

>>25536036 >>25536040 I google american monasteries and somehow google images show me many being orthodox, wow.

>>25536392 So as you can see it's not in any sort of way, an 'ok' situation, those cops really fucked me over and they could've let me go if they wanted to but they didn't, instead, they decided to cause problems for me.

They even said and admitted that they "would've let me go" if I didn't do what I did which I must admit was kind of prompted by them.

test

>>25536585 Can you not

>>25536587 Shut up autismo

God, I hate my life But I hate other people even more

Join the army or something. I'm 100% serious when I say you woldn't make it in a monastery. Those retards are worse than women, their power dinamics are hellish.

>>25536585 I wish i could find such a trap

Join the army or something. I'm 100% serious when I say you woldn't make it in a monastery. Those retards are worse than women, their power dinamics are hellish.

>>25536585 Failed You did that yesterday nigger.

>>25536610 The army doesn't accept diagnosed autistics, I'm sorry but I'm not exactly fit for anything

>>25536303 the disabled could go full retard and cry for euthanasia disabled all over the world could unite and commit mass suicide all at the same time, taking the reluctant / retards in denial with them to save the world how to recruit disabombersuicidewarriors: >no, we are *not* the same >i am retarded and have to die >this one here won't ever be loved either >no one loves you [insert hurtful thing] too if you're honest >stop hiding your worthlessness to yourself >everyone else can see it

i WILL find a way to weaponize the disabled