oh my god i fucking love it

ALL IS LOST AGAIN BUT IM NOT GIVING IN!

i dont understand the purpose of this breaking the usd?

this music sucks but there's clearly an agenda behind spamming this trash

>>25523868 >>25523873 theres no point i just know everyone loves listening to breaking benjamin so i decided to make another breaking benjamin thread kohl-tier music if there ever was

It captures my aesthetic perfectly i think this band is literally me

i forgot to cultivate my thread!

SHOW ME WHAT ITS LIKE TO DREAM IN BLACK AND WHITE SO I CAN LEAVE THIS WORLD TONIGHT

>>25523873 >>25523898 Schizo fight

>>25523986 he doesnt know what hes saying he just doesnt want to understand because hes a contrarian

i dont like. it sounds AI generated. Before AI would've said it sounds artificial, kinda the same thing.

HOLDING ON TOO TIGHT BREATHE A BREATH OF LIFE SO I CAN LEAVE THIS WORLD BEHIND

>>25524000 Breaking benjamin is my youth as much as korn or nine inch nails is its not nostalgia which binds me to them though i really do think theyre high quality music with an aesthetic that matches my ideological systems

>>25523856 No, it sounds very generic.

>>25524014 it sounds completely unlike anything else i challenge you to find a band that sounds like breaking benjamin ive listened to 30 seconds to mars already and they dont breaking benjamin is genre defining maybe thats why you think its generic

>>25524009 for me that's SOAD. a little grimey, a little silly.

>>25524029 when i was a teenager i once tried to show my friend soad and he just said >i dont like weird music i used to listen to them but they dont really resonate with me in any deeo way breaking benjamin is very histrionic- performative- and so they can shamelessly pluck at my heartstrings they threw subtlety out the window and appealed directly to the emo twink inside my soul

>>25524025 >breaking benjamin is genre defining maybe thats why you think its generic It sounds like all metal-pop-rock from the 2000's.

>>25524029 might be the worst SOAD song in existence lol. No interesting melody, none of their dynamic range, its like a child tried to parody SOAD. Jesus texan u suck

>>25524055 i cant find anything as good as it if the entire genre is trash this group isnt actually their newer albums suck thats why i never post them

>>25524058 This song is nostalgic to me. I used to smoke weed and listen to this on the bus ride to school. I've forgotten more about music than you'll ever know so cool it, bub.

>>25524060 you want twink-emo, which is a highly specific genre. You are a disgsting faggot who wants his specific lifestyle reflected in his music. Try billy talent or jimmy eat world or even the blood brothers tho, they are all a little faggy as well but actually brilliant from a music pov.

>>25524066 Makes sense, thats when your brain also mustve stopped developing. Also idk what you mean by knowing about music lol, I literally compose music.

>>25524060 Different tastes are different. You enjoy what you like, just don't expect me to like it. Here's something I enjoy for reference. :3

>>25524071 this you?

>>25524068 >>25524071 Kowdy, calm down and take your meds.

im not allowed to use cocaine every day because it offends your sensibilities im a grown ass adult and i want to make an informed decision goddamn prohibition niggers are stupid

>>25524068 i love billy talent my first cd was billy talent 2

>>25524074 i listened to 1 i dont believe you like this

>>25524131 It speaks to the core of my soul. Imagine hacking someone to pieces with a hatchet to this music. Yes, I have a lot of pent up rage. :3

>>25524074 I like 2. I listen to stuff like this when I need to concentrate on something. It works better than Mozart in my exp.

>>25524146 hack the slut to bits roast her soft ivory flesh one whore steak for bernd

>>25524157 >It works better than Mozart in my exp. I never found the appeal of classical music. I like the Moonlight Sonata, though. Because of Resident Evil. :3

>>25524185 I wouldn't eat people I despise, I'd only want for them to have a horrific death.

>>25524194 classical music is of course for pretentious clowns its not as though its more sophisticated than modern music just because its on a piano or some shit

>>25524202 i hacked her to bits and flushed her down my toilet just one more shitpost

>>25524210 Greatly appreciated. :3

>>25524210 Just realized it's a haikou.

>>25524226 haikus are best because rhyming ALWAYS ALWAYS sounds gay

I sometimes listen to them for nostalgia reasons. Their music used to be in every fragmovie or WoW pvp video in the 2000s.

>>25524233 >rhyming ALWAYS ALWAYS sounds gay I strongly disagree. t.rapped a lot in his youth

>>25524241 you are gay

>>25524247 If I were gay I'd be a succesful rapper like DMX. :3

>>25524262 yoyo lets have a fight but i aint waiting all day for you to bite you take your bitch ass out of this thread or test yourself against a crystal meth head

>>25524283 Your timing is crab, your rhyming is whack, you fuck moose on welfare, I burn you and scream "hell yeah!".

>>25524304 nono you need to rhyme every single time i know it feels stupid but you still have to do it

because rhyming is especially gay and embarassing

>>25524320 >>25524329

>>25524343 are you calling me cooked? how very subtle

show me what its like~ to dream in black and white~ so i can leave this world tonight~

>>25524353 >are you calling me cooked? >how very subtle ...yes, that's what I was going for. I am very clever indeed.

>>25524370 underhanded men spew this vitriol in code i see everything

>>25524378 Pleasant steamy moose, frolocking towards me erect , my anus bursted.

>>25524395 shiver me timbers another genius appears i am better still

WEVE BECOME DESOLATE ITS NOT ENOUGH IT NEVER IS BUT I WILL GO ON UNTIL THE END

>>25524427 KC is a place of culture, after all.

>>25524437 IVE LOST MY WAY IVE LOST MY WAY BUT I WILL GO ON UNTIL THE EEEEEEND

Another classic.

>>25524076 Nope. Lol @ whoever makes carnival music tho >>25524080 Whats/whos kowdy, my schizo friend? Sorry for triggering you tho. >>25524146 Oh nvm, you are not triggered, you are perma-butthurt

PAIN BREAKS THE RHYTHM BREAKS THE RHYTHM BREAKS THE RHYTHM

>>25524471 PAIN

>>25524471 >>25524475 Bernds are still stuck in their myspace phase lol. "Let me randomly post music lyrics because they are the best way to express my complex inner world". Its almost cute, in a rat-feeding-on-ratpoison way

>>25524497 this life is filled with hurt when happiness doesnt work

>>25524497 You are borderline, aren't you?

>>25524533 you let me violate you

>>25524514 And your low IQ really regularly leads you to project, doesnt it? You literally listen to the soundtrack for every borderline-girl from 20 years ago.

>>25524546 i didnt like year zero when i was a teenager but i like it as an adult

>>25524545 I don't know any borderline girls. Besides you. :3

>>25524559 So you dont know what projection means either. Thats impressive. Are you drunk or really that dumb?

>>25524550 I listened to it over a 1000 times, it's one of my all-time favourites. I also really liked HTDA.

YOURE NO GOOD YOU DONT CRY LIKE YOU SHOULD

why does each man kill the one he loves what does that even mean

>>25524601 Because they don't get loved back and grow desperate?

>>25524608 nevermind i dont care

>>25524608 Plenty of abusive people who violate despite being loved. Lol @ your perspective that exposes how pathetic you are.

we love death in june on kohlchan! kc tier!

>>25524627 ew

>>25524635 is it because theyre gay nazi satanists?

Another obscure classic from the 2000's.

>>25524651 what album in 40 seconds it sounds like queens of the stone age

>>25524641 No, that aspect is lowkey based. Its just that their music is genuinely bad and mostly listened to for image reasons. You and the faggy German are both guilty of this.

>>25524663 i think they make music ironically and laugh at their fans

Band/Album Black Light Burns - Cruel Melody

>>25524668 i download albums on soulseek and leave them in the soulseek folder until i listen to them thats for asking

>>25524667 Thats a possibility, but artists buying into their own crap isnt exactly a rarity. At least you, unlike the low iq german, proved that you at least partially recognize good music (Billy Talent 2, QOTSA), so dont worry, little faggot

>>25524686 im not gay because im only attracted to feminine men

I listen to them a lot I only listen to metal for lifting rap is for sissy NIGGERS

>>25524697 So your only defense-mechanism is projection? You can barely speak English and just schizo-post throughout the entire threda

>>25524696 We know, Ky, we know

>>25524720 whats ky

>>25524734 Another Canadian poster that you reminded me of.

>>25524737 every guy is attracted to really feminine looking guys they just deny that instinct sometimes

Borderline Dead inside I don't mind Falling to pieces

>>25524737 dows ky stand for something or is this some namefag i somehow dont know of

>>25524740 Not really. Try to define attraction, and you will realize that its not true. Tolerance on an aesthetic level is miles away from actual physical desire to penetrate, which is what male attraction is usually about.

>>25524748 Its just his name, jesus, sober up dude

>>25524768 ahhahahahahahahaha

>>25524751 like guys who look more like women than women do theyre out there occasionally we're fortunate we have the internet to study the rare passing traps that exist >>25524755 so what i cant ask questions now

>>25524751 or like just about every 15yo boy is very attractive especially if theyre white or asian tbh i think brown people are gross especially if theyre attractive theyre just more gross

>>25524784 Yes, but attraction usually brings a physical element along with it, and many men simply dont wanna fuck something in the ass that has a dick. >>25524788 Well, you are just (a bit) gay, which is totally fine. Still much better than the other German whos self-imploding in his closet.

>>25524802 the dick makes it hotter

>>25524806 You called yourself not gay a couple posts ago. Be better than the German fag and stop being closeted at least.

>>25524819 its simple, im attracted to femininity and not masculinity if i wanted big men to fuck me then i would be gay

>>25524825 >the dick makes it hotter

when i was 14 playing runescape

>>25524830 your argument is in bad faith because you live in the same world and see the same things i do and have therefore reached the same conclusions >>25524845 i was only free to play runescape because me mum was a cheapskate

>>25524850 i was f2p untill 2008, then started scamming americans on meetme.com saying im 14 f california and asking them to send a text message

>>25524853 pedos are so stupid hehe

>>25524859 I didnt udnerstand such thing back then its what another person simply told me and i never thought about it, the word was barely used back then

>>25524889 being 14 myself i probably though that being 20 is very ugly nad 20year olds are married or something so just said 14 f california and that i do cam show for text message, that was 1month of membership :D

>>25524902 yeah isnt it weird the older i get the more attractive younger people seem to get

>>25524908 bro the thing was it was normal to talk when i was 13-14 to 30year olds, runescape had all kinds of people nowadays you can be a pedo if youre 30 and your girlfriend is 23 15 years ago the word was "racist" about everything.

>>25524920 I ha alot of fights over it and destroyed people Sometimes people didnt like me if i was annoying or immature or simply not like them basically, so they called me immature and a pedo because of it, Lol I usually started talking super toxic things about how i like 14year old girls and how adult women are disgusting and made them super extremely angry But nowadays its very easy to get muted/banned on internet so i got runescape accounts banned for saying stuff like that.

>>25524920 When i had a discord server it turned out that all my friends except for one guy who was my bestie were actually high school students i mean we watched lolicon hentai together its like on the edge of being not okay i suppose i think i was like 24 or 23

>>25524935 I don't know about such communities, my discdord server is 25-40year olds mostly. I dont think you will find many communities like that in lithuanian language. There is one incel cc on runescape and their discdord is 30year old men talking shit about "Cunny" and posting naked 5year old girl paintings, i destroyed them completely, i still join their cc once a month or something, they are scared to respond to me nowadays And they were also the ones who spammed alice shit before i completely destroyed them now they're always quiet they've been on this KC place too.

AND ILLL SURVIVE PARANOID I HAVE LOST THE WILL TO CHANGE AND IM NOT PROUD, COLD BLOODED FATE I WILL SHUT THE WORLD AWAY

>>25524943 I got all my discord friends off of 18+ 4chan boards so its not my problem if they were in middle school i dont know why i stopped talking to them i just abandoned the server for some reason

>>25524949 revolting

>>25524989 :3

>>25524965 I can't stand human-trash, the humanity has regressed really hard in the last 20 years so doesnt matter the age. But I speak mostly to ex-convicts, drug and alcohol addicts, because they're usually have similar thinking to mine, same opinion about humanity, which is why they chose drugs/alcohol over living normally.

>>25524995 drugs should just be freely available to everyone im very passionate about this issue because i can SEE the positive effect this would have on the world we need to stop demonizing things that feel good

>>25524995 I can't talk to "normal" people at all, the advice they give, the shit they say its just completely alien to me, they're like 100 years behind me or something.

i really need more music like breaking benjamin ill get bored with it soon

>>25525023 i like this one too

>>25525030 nah

>>25525027 The rapper is a diagnosed schizophrenic and goes really wild when on stage. :3

>>25525034 I really like the instrumental and some of the rap parts.

>>25525035 i think i decided i liked death grips when i heard the song culture shock

I haven't listened to anything in 15 years. I can remember stuff like breaking benjamin when i played runescape. But since 2015 i was only listening to alcoholism songs, being drunk and mostly playing the same leaving las vegas music videos or similar stuff. After sobering up i dont listen to that so just nothing.

>>25525040 >culture shock Checking it out now and somewhat liking it, especially the beat.

>>25525063 >After sobering up i dont listen to that so just nothing. Sad. There's so much good music out there.

>>25525063 i got really deep into kpop now my phone is full of music i dont recognize from artists i dont recognize all kpop is pretty consistent quality so its not like it matters who you listen to except (g)idle they fucking suck

and time is going on and on it goes forever so i got high and lived all that life that i have taken all for granted

>>25525106 WHat are you taking Drinking or meth?

>>25525112 im just sitting here with no sleep for 2 days coming down off of meth in 6 hours im going to drink 3 tall beers

>>25525123 Not bad, seems cozy. You can go inside the night shelter being drunk. Could do it in UK but not in Lithuania. Sucks!

>>25525130 im not supposed to drink but they dont need to know im not supposed to use meth either trust me when i say it is not cozy im basically as uncomfortable as a person can be right now discounting actual pain and agony and i smell bad even though i showered 2 days ago its a hot day today, the first since winter started, like 14 degrees i had to take my sweater off

>>25525153 you'll have 3 beers outside to ease the hangoevr. I'd have 4 Do they really not let you in if you just drink a few? They probably knnow, In Lithuania they dont even allow you to drink 1

>>25525158 no youre allowed to be drunk you just arent allowed to drink in the building

>>25525165 See??? In Lithuania youre not allowed to be over 0.00 limit In UK i was allowed to drink as much as i want outside, and they let you inside, always unless youre very agressive

>>25525173 tolerance is wect you chose eact

they even hand out free bubble pipes where i live everyone smokes meth and down in the restrooms

>>25525181 I fix my teeth and nose then go back to netherlands or belgium Idk why i came back tbh, but its good because i need to ffix 12 teeth, 1 fixed 11 left and nose too. I spoke to local dutch people when i was homeless drinking near train station they told me if i am litouwen and have ID they'll give me everything. "Go to night shelter bro" They got excited when i said i didnt lose my passport, but i didnt go anywhere, i spent more time drinking there, being too weak, untill my stuff was stolen, Sad ! would be in belgium now at the night shelter, they help with the job too.

>>25525193 living the life!

>>25525193 In Lithuania everyone takes drugs, mostly fentanyl but they dont get caught, they only do the breathalyzer on people, unless you take too much of fentanyl

>>25525195 i dont trust dentists i would never let them tell me i need 12 procedures, they just look for excuses to take your money they wanted to remove my canine teeth for no reason and i said no and that was the last time i saw a dentist bastard wanted to fill like 7 "microcavities" im fine, my teeth are fine

>>25525206 It's free

>>25525212 the government pays they collect their fee

>>25525217 i had bad teeth pain and it started hurting all left side of face and everywhere else in the head, i need to get things fixed and drive back to Netherlands.

>>25525219 fair enough not everyone hates dentists

>>25525222 if not the teeth i would be sad being here, when i had an option to just go to a night shelter in antwerpen and they help with everything..now its fine....ill be back

none of you bastards ever learned my color system from when i was a schizo

>>25525222 I recommend going to Europe for you tbh.

>>25525258 You could play the flute in town centre like the canadian crackhead in bedford, i think he doesnt have any housing there cause he said he slept in some woman;'s barn

>>25525258 i dont know what i need to do to get a passport but i do know im not going anywhere while im on probation >>25525263 i wish i had a barn

>>25525270 There are places to sleep, some towns have night shelter 24/7 where you can go in everyday without documents and sleep but you can just sleep on streets and play the flute walk around and find a place to sleep, a barn or rsomething. day centre will tell you what to do

China rhymes with

>>25525278 i cant think of anything

>>25525286 Can't you immigrate to the UK easily as a canadian/australian/new zealandian?

>>25525290 ive never heard of anything like that but maybe its true it would be nice to wander around europe but i dont think ill ever leave vancouver

>>25525278 tryna like tryna find a rhyme

remember when i used to come here and try to convince you that god talks to you through the music and there are secret mkultra color codes present in most media

>>25525311 i didnt read much threads But I remember i was talking schizo shit, i was still in UK like 1year and 1 month ago. I got paid and i was drinking 1.5-2Liters of vodka per day for 2 weeks and talking schizo shit about CIA and stuff. I remember talkinga bout canadian crackhead and said he was CIA

>>25525318 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tgQUgmCAQK8 i would mostly post vocaloid music and try to explain how it was encoded with nazi color symbology i had a color system i used the most important ones being yellow = mortal and green = immortal which was meant to be the decision you make after death to reincarnate or drink the river of memory and become god so once i was green i was good i started out red and black and my job was torture like being tortured so you dont want to be red and black i was subject to quite a lot of abuse and i was like a helpless autist now im a yellow dog or at least i was back when i still cared it all means something but dont really worry about it i have a condition it feels like music speaks to me the medication makes it go away but i thought the illuminati took advantage of this feeling to brainwash people so i was brainwashed my mkultra into being a devil i have met god in different forms and ive witnessed miracles and coincidences so great that i do believe in god because to not believe is irrational at this point hes spoken to me in many different ways and he speaks to me still only less because of the meds i used to hear a voice in the wall which would talk about everything i did and i used to really enjoy listening to it i miss having schizophrenia i didnt know they could actually cure it with pills i was always cynical about it like they were only sedatives or something whatever, i would be happier if you forgot about all the vocaloid i posted because it really is something embarrassing

what i wanted other people to do is smoke large quantities of meth until the radio talks to them in order to induct them into my cult or have them eat highg doses of 4acodmt to meet god meth for satan dmt for god either path is valid because ultimately its the same person wearing a different mask jesus is satan is gods inquisitor and judge he is the won who will test and judge us i have been tested and i have been found worthy and im sure i will go to heaven when i die but i was going to hell before i was subject to psychological torture

this song used to scare the hell out of me

god sees everything

There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends

i hate this vape i bought i feel nothing when i smoke it yet i crave it like water so stupid

>>25525411 When I was diagnozed with schizophrenia (f23.5) all i had was paranoia and it looked like people know me and want me dead, going to shop i felt like the woman was standing on purpose TV made me feel uncomfortable because i had insane paranoia, but i didnt hallucinate anything I started visiting subreddit /r/psychosis and the people tell told bigger stories, when drinking i started copying them, also copying some people from mental hospital who talked shit and i wrote alot of schizo shit that nevre happened to me but what was said by other people from mental hospitals or written on /r/psychosis often when i was drunk i was larping as schizo on here or discord or somewhere else, because being schizo is fun, but i never had such real hallucinatons as you

i was trying to smoke fent when i wasnt supposed to and i was hiding from metallica unforgiven so the song wouldnt play on the radio i hid under the stairs where i thought there were no cameras and as soon as i put the fent pipe to my lips unforgiven started playing like clockwork scared the hell out of me i want to say i never tried to disobey again but thats a lie because i would forget the impact these events would have on me and go back to a state of disbelief. unforgiven playing at that exact moment proves the existence of god undoubtedly if i had not been deliberately hiding from the radio avoiding that song it would not but i was and it did. such is the life of a schizo to whom the radio speaks to

>>25525458 i once broke into a rec center after hours and hallucinated that there were invisible dead mummified zombie children alll around me grabbing at me and it was so terrifying i developed a fear of crowded buildings because they were holograms its a really really long story but that was the most terrified ive ever been in a pitch black corridor with these grotesque adhesive coated zombie children reaching out to me i completely wrecked the place

>>25525458 you never hallucinated like me because you never smoked meth

>>25525458 most of the time though being schizo was so much fun and all i had to do was find the stem of a meth pipe to smoke the residue to maintain my high meth is so potent its impotent for me now once again because of my fucking meds but i have had transcendental experiences while on meth which always made me believe in god god is a real personality which will play with you i would never discount anyones personal experiences with god because i know he can appear in many different forms

>>25525512 Meth probably would be nice for me, because when i drank really hard if i wanted to be schizo, alcohol helped, you probably need to have a schizo mind that not everyone is blessed with I would realy like to try meth.

>>25525533 i wondered why the german guy got so upset with me when i advertised meth here as some kind of schizo pill that caused psychedelic effects but it was because for him it wasnt we definitely do respond differently to meth although i would say it has the capacity to cause psychosis in anybody when i take meth now all it does is enhance creativity and such shit i dont even hear the voice in the wall anymore even while im on it

>>25525554 you need to get off the antipsychotics in the future to enjoy meth again I couldnt enjoy alcohol on risperidone when i took just 2 or 3mg a day

>>25525563 i cant really enjoy alcohol anymore either and i know its my meds its hard because im on disability too and one of the requirements to receive disability is to submit to treatment im sure that wont be a problem though the real problem is im technically still committed under the roger act and can be sent back to the psych ward if i refuse my injection

>>25525581 Yoou need to get a job and ask them to get you off the medication

i think the voice in the wall is an angel our brains interface with our souls so by tampering with brain chemistry they can effect the soul as well thats what i think

>>25525581 i had f23.5, later was changed to f10.5 and now f10.5 was removed too because i told everything to doctors, I remember my psychiatrist said weed can give you schizophrenia...no it doesnt...it gives paranoia for first timers...they taught me everything so i was able to even smoke spice and have paranoia and be fine with it because i knew why and just wait.

>>25525589 you think that would work? if i can convince them to put me on oral antipsychotics because i hate needles or something that wou;d be good enough

>>25525592 or maybe not lol

>>25525598 get oral medication, cut it in half and to not have big withdrawals take half + alcohol for some time It was hard to quit even 1mg of risperidone after taking it for a year, i borrowed grandmothers lorazepam, took it everyday for sleep when i went from 1mg risperidone to 0. then i still had to drink more beer and i was only fine after a month o somtehing. the second time they put me in mental hospital i was only there for 2 weeks, they detoxxed me with diazepam for alcoholism that time so i was fine, i got out and quit risperidone

>>25525614 thats what ill do then

>>25525633 Do you know what doses you wuld get in pills equal to what you get now

>>25525636 i dont know i get injection 150mg of paliperadone i think its called

>>25525641 what did they tell you? that they will cure and you will take less and less everyday?

>>25525646 they told me the injection would eventually replace oral antipsychotics and what theyre doing this month is lowering my oral olanzapine im also on a few other things i dont remembe rwhat theyre called to mitigate side effects zoloft too

maybe if i complain about how much the injection hurts theyll let me stop probably not anytime soon though it really does hurt you cant lay on your arm for like 2 weeks

>>25525650 why? in lithuania they told me if i go 3rd time to hospital they would put me on injections and then it would have been over. I was lucky 3rd time was in UK and the seizure there and they told me everything opposite, when i was in detox last time a year ago, i spent 14 days but i didnt go wanna down to rehab for 14 days more, there was a psychiatrist who talked shit and offered me to go to mental hospital, i destroyed her completely asking for what, why would i need those pills she just said "they cure you", lol. Randomly bunch of shit just because i said i dont have a place to live and im going out to be homeless, maybe she didnt wanna say it directly, but they would have given me a free flat to stay, and the waiting time for disabled is not that long. But i just destroyed her with what i was told in UK and other common knowledge.

>>25525672 the frustrating thing is the meds did cure me lol no they implied i might get the injection for the rest of my life but at the very least i cant reject it for as long as im on probation and have a rogers order

>>25525672 There are schizo doctors in Lithuania btw, i messaged one of them from mental hospital on messenger and she replied with "psychosis dont happen from drugs/alcoholism, its from god" SHe works in 4th skyrius in Psychiatric hospital and has made an organization called "13 and Ko" obsessed with numbers schizo I told her "ok have fun then in the mental hospital with people doing gods missions :D" and she blocked me

>>25525692 she gives lots of medication to people she doesnt like, the soviet doctors here you wouldnt survive a mental hospital in lithuania

>>25525692 >>25525695 sounds like something that probably shouldnt be allowed to happen lmao

>>25524949 Unsurprising that the German fag literally likes the gayest kind of rap ever lmaooooooooooooo

>>25525697 when parents took me to mental hospital at 14 the psychiatrist soviet woman also harassed me and said stuff. On my last day before going out next morning my pills dose was increased so much that i slept all day, in the evening i woke up and tried to walk somewhere out of my room, it got dark in my eyes and i had to sit down on the floor

>>25525707 yeah at one of the psych wards i was at there was a guy who just slept all day every day and i tried to express concern for him like perhaps hes over medicated but of course its not my problem its weird that the antipsychotics dont make me feel tired anymore when im pretty sure they did at first i gained like 40 lbs in the psych ward but lost it all when i left it was because they had unlimited free cookies and there was nothing to do other than ask the nurses for nicotine lozenges and cookies every 20 minutes

being in the psych ward where they normally allowed cellphones without a cellphone made me fucking lose my mind there was literally nothing to do but read but you cant read all day every day without getting sick of it i would just walk in circles around the ward i escaped remmeber i told you to buy a cellphone and then fully expected to be recommitted but this time with a phone so i wouldnt die of boredom as i said i went to jail instead

>>25525716 I enjoyed the adult mental hospitals, especially the second time, because they detoxxed me properly, i was getting diazepam and feeling good, smoking cigs, talking shit in the smoking area, drinking coffee, eating food, playing chess Retards there doing non sense like one guy who had a bottle of water and always put random shit in it like black bread, oranges, apple, some meat, just whatever then shakes it and offers to everyone, he drank it himself.

>>25525724 another guy had a tattoo of a crying woman he showed me in it and said "This is suffering, this is sandra"

sounds like amerislop lol

>>25525724 there was this one guy who walked incredibly slowly by shuffling his feet like an inch at a time and he actually pissed me off so much it was unreal i wondered what the fuck his deal was >>25525729 its genre defining amerislop

nigger i dont give a fuck if youre disabled youre being annoying dont tell me you cant move your fucking legs possible malingerer

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u-5f2UXosk4 Life in a mental asylum God plays sax the Devil violin / Dumnezeu la saxofon dracu la vioara 2004

>>25525755 ill put it on after i listen to breaking benjamin

breaking benjamin is so epic

>>25525755 The guy singing stuff about not being an emperor's heir and stuff I remember when people tried to destroy me telling me to not talk whatever i want to talk on the internet, and doxxed me and other shit, i just destroyed them completely and I just went even more schizo, became famous in bedford and lithuania, put 1 guy in prison and pretty much destroyed everyoner.

>>25525790 how did you destroy them

>>25525790 I have still met people after that, who tried to embarass me over my talkings, king stuff, religion stuff, and all that shit, tried to remind me, but they were just destroyed and it didnt do much so they stopped completely when they realized they've lost

>>25525793 by being even more schizo, doxxing me didnt work because people in bedford all knew me i was normal

>>25525801 i- i see

>>25525801 I remember when i was in shop, during the great schizo months of destroying on discord and i was talking about winning with tons of schizo shit i went inside a corner shop to get beers as usual, a guy who left saw me and came back in saying to the cashier "Do we have a winner in here?" trying to embarass me or something, the cashier replied "no we dont" At the end they were all destroyed. But it was really funny trolling and destroying so many people.

>>25525821 do the forces of god simply smite your enemies?

>>25525828 Yeah

>>25525829 me too killed me dad and sent him to hell

i think the devil killed my grandfather to destroy me he was vulnerable because he was an atheist make no mistake his death devastated me

I like these sngs: Blow me away The diary of jane

>>25525848 i have too many favorite songs to list them i like dance with the devil and unknown soldier

okay im watching life in a mental hospital now enough breaking benjamin

really long thread considering it was a shitpost

yeah almost autosage

>>25525987 it really feels like im stuck in a psych ward with nothing to do excellent video