I have to pee. Dad is getting old and I'm worried about his headaches. I hope it's not vax related. Out of milk but still have bananas and Cheerios. Maybe I can use tea instead of milk.

>>25519123 Thats funny i just tried to pee because im on break but i couldnt because i didnt have to but now i feel like i have to but i cant Perhaps gangstalking

>>25519091 doing drugs is extremely dangerous for your health

>>25519132 perhaps I am in your balls

>>25519136 Im only on a little meth but i dont feel it at all today I felt it a lot yesterday so maybe meth tolerance actually rises much faster than previously thought Its not something you can do every day unfortunately >>25519145 If youre my son your name is alexander

I am a 25 year old semi-neet loser awake at 2AM of a workday Never imagined my life would turn out like this

>>25519148 One day you will have to answer for your lifestyle and the only way out will be suicide

>>25519148 Do you do translation work sometimes?

Was just making gay jokes on the group chat with my boss and coworkers. Had a giggle

>>25519148 Im 19yo finishing highschool this year and Im like 90% sure my life is gonna turn out like this

I'm thinking about kommisarnik's bathroom

>>25519155 That was a summer job I took 5 years ago, with modern AI chatbots even the most illiterate boomers can translate documents

>>25519123 I made alot of cheerios with cold coffee.

>>25519161 Fuzzy kitty and laptop chillin in bed is honestly very nice. I miss those days when I was your age.

>>25519161 I lived like that until i was 25 and then the gibs ran out Luckily im on more gibs now >>25519167 I always wanted to translate japanese visual novels but im too stupid I guess i could do it but it sounds like a lot of work

doing > thinking

im going to fall asleep watching documentaries about history against i ate some cheese so i expect wild dreams once more

>>25519123 im so glad i hate my family so that i dont need to worry about them

>>25519161 Serious advice: As a guy who gave myself internet addiction around the same age, DO NOT 19 is too young to throw your life away, epic kohlchan posts and reddit updoots are not going to shill for your resume

>>25519161 NEET is cozy life, but you have to make plans for the future

>>25519161 See how everyone is tripping on you for just wanting to be, even on an imageboard full of deranged pedophiles? Yeah, get used to that, kid.

>>25519199 I unironically dont think I have an internet addiction, Im not really on any social media and Im spending vast majority of my time either studying or doing my hobbies the issue is that Im basically a 70iq retard slowthinker so with putting the actual effort in studying I still come out worse than people from my enviroment that dont study at all >>25519202 Im propably either gonna attend the tram/metro driver courses after I finish highschool if I dont fail the health condition exams

>>25519161 You should spend all of your free time with your friends on KC!

>>25519242 Dude you are in highschool? You baby retard.

>>25519292 He's so old it's so over for him it's over

>>25519301 Its getting increasingly strange to grow old on the web.

>>25519242 Imageboards are toxic to the mindset, for example I used to browse lots of 4chan and reddit NEET threads where they would brag about being a neet, that completely ruined my mindset of what I want to do with my future Being a neet is only "fun" the first 2 weeks, then your life will spiral so bad you feel like you can't stop it

There are so many reasons why I should kill myself and so few reasons not to do it. I have short, mid or long terms plans for the future, my planning currently is concerned with the next 5 seconds. My job is the only thing keeping me from completely going insane but I am still slowly going towards it. My thoughts are nothing but either killing myself, how bad the world is, how shit I am, how there is nothing but suffering for me in the future, how I should kill others and so on. I have no mental calm, my mind can never go blank or relax. When I lay in bed I have to watch dogshit TV series, youtube videos or read until I can not keep my eyes open because if I try to sleep normally it will just end in endless thought loops. This causes extreme sleep depravation and I come late to work which means I have to stay longer which in turn means I come home at 8pm and basically the day is over. My life is complete hell. I dont know anyone, I have zero friends, interests, hobbies or anything. Money seems useless, I spend next to nothing because I cant think of anything to buy that I want or makes me happy. This makes working even more pointless, the whole reason I still work is to distract my thoughts from mental images of me blowing my head off with a gun. I hate myself, I hate this existence, I hate everything.

>>25519431 *I have no short, mid or long term goals

>>25519327 I was NEET for 12 years. Everyone should do it.

>>25519431 You can be my friend.

German Staatsantifa will be kill and I just can't stop smiling

my thoughts are dark, very dark...

>>25519508 Turn the light on duh

>>25519492 No, I am special

>>25519517 Ok fine. But if you wanna visit FL you can hangout with me and the mexiCan.

>>25519500 Maybe they'll let you read about it in jail or forensic psychiatry.

I finished work Are you proud of me kohl

>>25519524 It seems you have forgotten to take your pulls, Gustav

>>25519524 It seems you have forgotten to take your pills, Gustav

The guy i was working woth kept picking up peoples pipes paying around and im thinking what are you doing my guy Like 2 people were enraged by him and called him a goof

Theres this tinkling noise that happens when you pick up a pipe or drop one which triggers every addict and also me We can hear it from a mile away and we recognize each other from the noise in our pockets

>>25519572 You are just one little bust away

>>25519610 I will use this knowledge to destroy you. I will break your psyche with this one simple trick.

>>25519638 Its like a pavlov thing

>>25519148 youthgarch, please

>>25519614 I report everything illegal I see here. I can understand that you are fed up with those onions that were misbehaving again lately, but I am not one of them

>>25519646 Good luck convicting me i am a known schizophrenic

>>25519655 Good for you

>>25519662 I dont like your attitude

>>25519674 Why? Sorry?

>>25519675 People only say good for you sarcastically

>>25519682 Get well soon?

>>25519690 That ones usually unironic but good for you sounds like a bitchy teenager

>>25519690 I bet youre actually english native fucking with me

>>25519697 This is what yopure fapping to lately? Ok

The tau does not strive to be, it simply is. Water flows down the path of least resistance not because it is lazy or degenerate, but because that is its natural imperative.

Im gonna be honest i forgot i was so cute until bernd posted my photo Put me in a good mood all day

>>25519702 It's all I've ever wanted

>>25519742 The tau is always apparent, if it were not it would not be the tau. The thing you seek is only that most obvious

Youre probably wondering what i could know of tau. Or why.

Did you know that water is actually corrosive? It can dissolve many things. I bet you didnt know this about water but now your eyes have been opened

>>25519763 I have never had a credit card I dont know why you would want one its just a loan machine

>>25519763 >Please daddy jew buy this for me!

>>25519763 Looking juicy.

>>25519913 igor is infact a manlet that photshop himself buff

>>25519932 Igor thinks he looks like a sissy hes literally like a russian thug

>>25519943 igor is size S

>>25519970 Im a size small too but i wear medium sometimes

>>25519943 He looks gay.

>>25520023 Igor looked really good when he was like 20 but now he just looks like a thug Not a gay bone in his body

quantum shifting :v

Igor was so attractive as a 20yo He glows

The tau does it BECAUSE it is easy, not because it is hard!

I don't want to be here anymore but I delay and I delay and I delay ad infinitum

I described it to one of the inmates while I was in jail as a paralysis of action

>>25520280 In jail you just wait for time to pass Do you ever find that youre just waiting for time to pass in your normal life? We are obliged to find out how to spend our time so that we are not waiting for anything, we must be able to be present in every moment or esle this world will becomelike a prison!

>>25520293 This world is a prison if you have no distraction, that is the default

>>25520298 The tau is not present in the future the tau is present in a moment!

“it was cool when I wasnt dying. dying is one of the worst things ever.”

I know it is a prison down to the atoms, this is not the freest form of life, if life is free to begin with

>>25520310 I think my tau was shoplifting Behold for i am hermes protector of thieves

Heaven is egernity in a moment of absolute bliss The nearest we can reach to heaven while we live is through tau

No when i was most happy was when i was schizophrenic and i thought i was stealing magical alien artifacts When i thought i was an android and shit

I ate too much fish and chips. I wish I could shit already. I wish that I hadn't started season 2 of Solo Leveling until they were all released so that I could binge watch it. I miss smoking cigarettes.

>>25520326 I read the solo levelling webnovel a while ago Want to know how it ends

>>25520306 But bernd, you were always dying, even from the start.

>>25520325 This actually could be real you never know, you see, what you perceive may not be what is truly being relayed to your senses

>>25520331 I wish i was crazy enough to just fucking kill myself

>>25520331 it has accelerated though. this rate of dying is out of my comfort zone

>>25520335 Thats one explanation as to why the radio talks to me but ive witnessed while around other schizos the radio talk to them as well Schzios are chosen by some force

>>25520337 Whats wrong with you

>>25520338 I know, I had such a bout in 2023, I don't really know what is real or true anymore tbh. I just accept that I'm in whatever configuration I'm sensing and that's that. But don't get me wrong, I don't trust what I sense.

>>25520349 Sometimes i know i do mishear words like the tv just said >scary demon Bla bla bla >they rape Ble ble bla >rape But its nothing like that actually Its having music somehow comment on what youre thinking or doing with accuracy and perfect timing This one time a few years ago i was psychotic and the radio was talking to me The song unforgiven by metallica would play if i did something wrong or had an evil thought So i wanted to smoke fent but i wasnt allowed to so i hid under the stairs in a crawl space where i was sure there were no cameras and i was sure u forgiven wouldnt play But as soon as i put the pipe to my mouth unforgiven started It scared the shit out of me

Ot was an event that made me.certain in the existence of god or rather satan because it was satan in the radio

Satan is jesus christ gods inquisitor

A young man learns their rules

My thoughts are swirling around the idea that I should leave this world behind and just head out into the woods. Sink or swim, live or die. Just me and my animal and spirit frens.

>>25520378 A god that would punish suicide isnt my god God is a personal presence who can be reasoned with and who remembers and develops with your relationship It is having a friend who knows every inside joke

>>25520378 God does not submit to a bible or to mans i terpretations of him he is a living personality

>>25520373 >>25520388 There is always wisdom in the mouths of madmen. One just needs the knowledge to sort the useful bits from the nonsense.

>>25520390 You can just kill yourself The only thing you needed to do while you were alive is accept god

>>25520399 Is that you speaking, or is it the one who inhabits your body?

>>25520403 When i wrote it i intended to write it as a message from god but what are my intentions anyway

No matter jow many times it happens that an event makes me absolutely sure of the existence of god i always forget about it a little later Much of the time i only patronize myself when i speak of gid

>>25520424 You are God's messenger?

>>25520504 Yes

Ask god anything